さゆりの夢
KONNICHIWA bitchesIt’s scary yet amazing how we can feel such expression, such feeling, such happiness.
I think i’m in a really good place in my life right now. I feel like everything is falling right into place. I’m ready for what’s going to happen next. I’m ready for whatever comes my way, good or bad. I don’t know if this is how life’s supposed to be but I don’t care, I’m gonna live it.
I’m finding my Happiness =)
This is my Pokeball i got on the back of my right calf. The artists name i can not give out nor can i mention where he is located. What I can tell you is when he heard my idea to get a pokeball on the back of my leg he was very skeptical. Then I explained to him this: When I was just about 5 pokemon hadn’t even come out yet. I remember my mom got this video for me from Burger King or something (Vaguely remember that part). The video was almost like an info-mercial for this new thing coming out called pokemon. From the moment i saw that video, I knew i had to have everything that had to do with this. Pokemon Red finally came out and I got my first Gameboy Pocket (The one where you could adjust the brightness of the black and white.) and Pokemon Red Version for Christmas. I opened these two things and every other gift was point less. That entire day, I sat on the couch and played that game. I had every Pokemon game owned and beaten. I am now twenty years old and up until a few months back, I slept with my Pokemon pillow every night. That was until broke up with my now ex-girlfriend, she left me homeless, and burned everything I owned. Anyway, I love Pokemon and it will always be a part of my life.
Yo Razo you shouldn’t stuff things down a woman’s throat(
Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is Angel and i’m a girl, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up. You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already. Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy. Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart. I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy. Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy? You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay? It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more? I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like ahospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait. …Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you! Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop! Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion. Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you! I love you, Mommy. Every abortion is just… One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak… REPOST IF YOUR AGAINST ABORTION !
Take my pride…
Can’t nobody hold me downnnn! Oh no, I’ve got to keep on moooovin!
I’m back in my game and play only by my rules.
Omg! Sleep sleep sleep… Must fall asleep… -_-‘
It’s very interesting how this works… i’m still not entirely sure myself about this strange event either…. but…
It’s entirely done with. The pain, the sorrow, the sadness, the crying, the overthinking, the stupidness, the lies, the drama…. EVERYTHING!
It’s amazing! I don’t think i’ve ever been so happy to see someone I spent almost 3 years of my life with, off my Friendslist on Facebook AHAHAHA!!! <3<3
This weekend was a huge reminder of how important it is to allow yourself to completely heal. I’m living this single life having so much fun with my friends and family. Learning more about who I am so that I never lose myself ever again. =) rushing into another relationship just isn’t a healing method. It’s running from the reality n not facing your problems. Time really does heal so let it do it’s thing. =)
I saw my very first shooting star!!!! It was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. ^_^
I’m actually looking at the milky way. I could never see this in the city. Pitch darkness with no city lights… Water crashing onto the rocks and dock… Crickets singing songs… This could not be any better
